This is where I have to just give it to the Big Man upstairs because quite frankly it's all out of my control. The only thing I do have control of is how I prepare for this adventure. I've been doing some strength training for the past 2 weeks to prepare me for my video and future training with our local "Ninja Machine" Kirsti Pratt. It's kicking my butt....literally! For the past year, I have really been working hard to activate my glute muscles and strengthen my hamstrings. With the rods in my sacrum, my biomechanics and gait pattern are off not allowing proper movement. BUT, I am happy to report that for the past 2 days my BUTT and Hammies have been reaaaalllly sore. I have been incorporating pull up variations with isometric holds as well as push up variations. My upper body is sore too. Let's just bluntly say that I kicked my own arse.
Now, let's get back to the visual field loss, balance issues and the fact that I have fallen 3 times in the past year. I guess that I could let that "disability" scare me into thinking that there is no way in hell that I can do this. But, that's just not me. I was told not to do "cardio" while I was in the wheelchair; well, I got up to 6 miles in it. My PTSD & visual field loss frightened me to too much to train for my Century ride on back roads; but I completed it. Years ago I was told that I wouldn't amount to much; well, I'd say that I am pretty rich with love from my family, friend and clients which has put me in the position that I am in today. So, why in hell would I let a mild issue like this hold me back? In fact, maybe I can show others who may suffer from similar symptoms due to concussions, head trauma, etc. that you CAN do anything that you put your "HEART" into. Is it going to be a challenge; well duh!?!? Do I accept the challenge? Hell yeah!
So the next move is to create this video with my energy and style. Luckily I have a videographer who going to help me with this on Monday at KOR Komplex in St. Charles. Then, I shall email it to Steve...the ANW dude.
Again, this is where I just give it to God and let him guide me. If this path is meant to be in the now, I will have the resources and strength to say and do what it takes to get to the next level. If it's not time now, I will learn from this experience, grow and try again.
A body in motion stays in motion. So keep going.